Ignorant Lovers Bliss

March 26, 2014 § Leave a comment

Sometimes I watch you as you sleep
And feel compelled to hug you tight
As I remember why I fell in love with you, and the pivotal moments in our journey of love.
Last night, I thought of the sacrifices I’ve made to get to you.
And as you laid there sleeping I knew it was all worth it,
I felt the urge to kiss you as you slept
I was excited for our love;
I was proud of our love,
I felt; all the struggles, despair and triumph were worth it,
I wanted to embrace you and show my love and gratitude,
I thought of moving close to you and holding you tight,
I was happy.
I was proud of our love.
I wanted to be vulnerable, like when we first met.
When you were perfect and had no faults.
But I couldn’t seem to move,
I just stared;
I just stared at you
I watched your chest move but I didn’t move.
I watched you sleep peacefully 
But something in me couldn’t seem to move,
I could not embrace you, hug or kiss you.
For fear that this feeling wouldn’t last.
I couldn’t let my guard down,
For tomorrow you would disappoint me again…
And as usual, you did.

 

 

 

 

VALENTINES DAY…

March 26, 2014 § Leave a comment

I cried like it was a funeral; because I knew it was the end.

(14.14.2)

The Aftermath.

August 20, 2013 § Leave a comment

We make love and promise we will never hurt each other again. Sweet kisses heal all the pain.
 
I tell you you that I will never leave you and you act like you don’t believe me. 
 
I close my eyes tight and hope that it’s a promise I can keep. We will certainly hurt each other again, but will I ever leave? 

My Reminder.

August 20, 2013 § Leave a comment

The accountability rests in the promises I’ve made to enhance humanity. Not only have I made a vow to you but so many others livelihood are at stake. 

Let’s Start Over.

August 14, 2013 § Leave a comment

Today is a new day, please let’s be good to each other. The abuse has gotten too much. You know the amazing thing about life? Yesterday doesn’t define us. We can start over and if we mess up, we can try again.
So not only do I forgive you; let’s start over.

Death.

August 14, 2013 § Leave a comment

 

 
I’m not writing about this. I’m not gonna tell you my thoughts, feelings and fears of dying. No I’m not. Not today.

Self-Reflection: Relationships.

August 14, 2013 § Leave a comment

My perception of self is my own. No one can define me and my world. My dreams. My goals. Me.
My relationship.
What you see is not what it is. My lens is the only one that is clear, when it comes to…ME.
Your perception of self is your own. No one can define you and your world. Your dreams. Your goals. You.
Your relationship.
What I see is not what it is. Your lens is the only one that is clear, when it comes to…YOU.